Today was a stressful day. I'm at a crossroads it seems in my life. I don't know what God wants me to do and I am afraid to find out. What if its scary, what He has planned for me? This may sound silly but it is the truth.
I'm afraid of the future because it is unknown. All I know is things will be changing and change terrifies me.
But, I also hate to look back. Work is becoming increasingly uncomfortable and I think its time for a change but something inside me clings helplessly to this job. Its my first and only job and it took me a long time to be comfortable. Even now with my recent unease when I think about a new job, new people, new things to learn, possibly a new home my heart starts to race.
But when I look back I see how its best that I leave.
Listening to this song by She & Him and thinking how yes I may not like to look back at my mess-ups but I can learn from them and maybe just maybe I can do better in the future.
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